midnight rant #2

Label . Label . Label .

Generally , labelling people is beyond our hands . Who are we to label or judge somebody , right ?

My mind is bothered by the thoughts of people labelling other people.  "Eee dia tak pakai tudung la" "eee baju dia ketat la" "eee dia ni ee dia tu" . "Mesti dia tak ni mesti dia tak tu" uish kotor nya hati kita bersangka buruk dekat org .

Ada satu video matluthfi pasal expectation , ayat dia people labelling people like "mesti dia takkabur riak kafir syiah" . it may sounds funny , or as a joke . But its true . People do label other people just because of their outlooks . It bothers me , really .

Especially for us Muslims , we know that there is no other judge besides Allah swt . Kita kata kita pegang kata-kata tu and percaya dengan Allah tapi kita tetap jugak nak judge orang . Tak rasa macam menipu diri sendiri ke ?

We teach ourselves to label others , the non-muslims , i bet you the more you judge them , calling them kafir kafir kafir , lagi lah mereka tak berminat dengan islam . Walhal Allah swt dan nabi Muhammad saw suruh kita untuk dakwah . Lagi kita sebut , lagi jadi doa . Doalah mereka kafir sentiasa , tak masuk Islam . Selfish nya nak kita-kita je yang masuk syurga , tak ke ? Penat-penat Rasulullah berdakwah pada yang bukan Islam , kita hanya nak orang kita je yang masuk syurga . Ada jugak senario , orang orang islam sendiri yang label saudara islam dia yang lain kafir takkabur riak segala . Penat-penat Rasulullah dan para sahabat nak bina ukhwah dalam Islam tapi kita cuma tahu rasa diri sendiri tu bagus , orang lain semua tak bagus . Itu lagi sedih dan memalukan agama sendiri .

I have always preferred to say "dia tak hidayah lagi kot" "dia tak matang lagi kot" , i dont know if people agree with my terms tapi to me , i dont know whats going to happen in the future . Orang yang tak masuk islam lagi tu dah masuk islam , orang yang dulu gila harta tu dah sedekah harta dia utk bina masjid , orang yang tak pakai tudung dulu tu dah pun pakai tudung . Jadi daripada keluarkan kata kata yang mungkin jadi doa tu , baik bersangka baik .

We are in a time where everything else is falling apart , how about we fix our akhlak and how our mind and mouth works . Maybe , just maybe , everyone would have a better life , how about we start to dakwah with our actions . Sebab orang yang baik dia akan sentiasa muhasabah diri , rendah diri , dan bersangka baik . Sudah sudah la tu melabel manusia manusia lain tu , mengajak dan mengajar orang lain melabel orang jenis ni begini orang jenis tu begitu , takut takut satu hari kita yang kena label . Ajar lah diri tu dan orang sekeliling untuk berfikiran positif dan sentiasa mendoakan orang lain . Bunyi sangat cliché but nothing is impossible .

Dont let your absent mind make others what you are too . I've been bothered by this and it makes me sad how awful the minds of thr people who dengan cepatnya accuse others of things . Our minds should be full of knowledge and happy thoughts and rainbows and butterflies .

Haha that ends my midnight rant , cuz my headache is worse now . Assalamualaikum

rant on Paul Walker

Alahai handsomenya awak ni

Assalamualaikum guys , since youve already seen the picture above . You would probably know what i am about to rant on , on this post . Hahaha .

So apparently , last week I went to watch Fast and Furious 7 with my friend . It wasnt that I was a huge fan of the francise but because I just really wanted to watch a movie in a cinema with popcorn and hotdogs , and the mall that i went to has MBO cinema (which is my favourite cinema!!!! Cuz the seat is so comfortable hahaha okay back to the story)

I was a fan of action movies , the thrill excites me . So what the hell kan , masuk je lah . If I could rate the moviw on a scale of 1 to 10 , i'd give it a 20 . Hahaha it was awesome times awesome times paul walker awesome . The action was beyond anything ive imagined and like seriously you have to watch it for yourself to understand .

I knew about Paul Walker's death but i didnt know and cared that much since I didnt recognize him that much , he rarely comes out in E! So yeah . But watching the ending , i'm all tears baby . The song and the video was perfect .

So when i went home , i decided to do my research on him . I went on wikipedia , google , news updates ,youtube  videos . First , i found out how he actually died . Then i found out that he left his 13 year old daughter at that time . Then i read about his back stories , like how he used to study marine biology and opened a foundation in helping all the people that needed help and he went to Haiti to help them and i watched the interviews of his dad and brothers and how they cried about losing him . The Furious Family had a rough time too losing him in 2013 . And i found out how close they were . Man , i cant get enough of doing my research of him . Honestly i am not finished with this phase just yet . Hahahaha . Last night , I watched reactions video of people watching See You Again Tribute to Paul Walker on Youtube (hah i have no life whatsoever) and dammit , i cried again and again .

Its sad how all the nice people has to go first . But thats why sort of a reminder that you should treat the nice ones nicely so that you wont regret later on in life when they are gone .
Paul was a good man , aside from all the boy stuff he did like car racing (alah car racing is cool so you go paul!!!!!!) And seeing how everyone is sad of losing him shows how nice he truly is to people . Oh and he's one hella of a good looking guy . Youre a douch if you dont want to admit the fact that he is .

How lame is my rant . But i guess i wrote this as a tribute to him too . (How much better would it be if he was a muslim , he did most of the right things muslims should do . All the good deeds)

Paul Walker , I just regret not knowing you before you were dead .

And after the day i watched f8 , i vowed to myself that i am going to watch all the fast and furious movies and keep it as my favourite . Hahaha . I dont care if i'm not the girly girl kind of type , i'm still gonna love fast and furious .

Hahaha i think thats all for now . Leganya dapat rant on what i've been obsessing for now ! Assalamualaikum .

it's my life

assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakatuh !

it's been a while since kita tulis apa apa dekat blog ni . sebab tak ada idea (reason ko sama je kan sebenarnya hahaha) and sebab sibuk nak spm . haih , aku rasa bila aku update mesti start dgn perkataan spm . aku pun tak tahu kenapa . dah immune dah perkataan tu kot -_- hahaha .

anywho ,

this blog post is akan menjadi tempat aku luahkan perasaan , sekali lagi . cerita dia macam ni .

i think i have a problem with people judging me . i have serious issues yang akan insecure and self-conscious dengan apa yang orang fikir pasal diri aku . siapa lagi macam tu ? korang ada tak ? hm :(

to be honest , for now aku sangat grateful dengan life aku , dengan orang sekeliling aku . tapi aku rasa macam aku tak de chance untuk tell the whole why i am so happy . i feel like everyone is out to get me . ugh . kenapa eh tu ? in my case , aku tak berani nak voice out or tell people anything kecuali dalam tulisan . i think that is my problem right now .

bayangkan , the feeling when you cant tell people your feelings , how happy you are . because others are gonna judge you . padahal ini hidup kita kan , bukan ke suka hati kita la kita nak buat apa tak ? selagi family , and close friends kita know who we are , what we do . nak risau apa dengan fikiran orang lain . aku rasa macam nak show the whole but i cant because you are someone and nanti orang judge . like wadahek la . hahaha aku bukan selalu mcm ni k .

bila kita happy pun nak kena sorak sorak , padahal bukannya kita buat dosa pun . ada pulak golongan masyarakat dalam dunia ni yang dok sibuk nak peringat kita "jgn la tunjuk yang awak tu happy nnt orang judge awak . apa awak nak buat dekat belakang suka hati awak lah . yang penting jaga imej bla bla bla"

aku sebenarnya tak faham dengan golongan yang mcm ni , imej apa yang nak dijaga sampai nak tunjuk kebahagiaan pun dilarangnya . aku rasa manusia sekarang dah tak ada hak untuk hidup .

everyone has the right to live their own life based on how they want to , as long as their don't break the syariah law . Allah never told us to not be happy . Allah even reminded us to be grateful and be thankful to him of what He had given us . so why stop us from it ?

dari skop yang besar kita tengok , for the people in this world , they keep telling us to be ourselves but then when we become who were are , we get judged . if we hide , people tell us don't worry and just be yourself . if we judge , we get booed at . aku tak faham sebenarnya arah tuju manusia sekarang ni . aku kesian dengan orang yang salah interpret maksud untuk tegur orang and orang yang nak orang lain jadi mcm dia .

kita manusia , dilahirkan macam kain putih tau . corak kita berbeza beza , dari pelbagai sudut . kalau nak expect semua orang untuk jadi mcm kau yang cukup perfect tu memang impossible lah . prinsip hidup aku , aku biar semua orang ada corak hidup dia sendiri sebab kalau kita yang paksa nak corakkan , nnt lagi tercalar . sebab fikir lah , kain putih kita pun entah mcm mana kita contengkan , walaupun Alhamdulilah kita masih diberi hidayah oleh Allah , tak terpesong kan . tapi sejauh mana kita confident corak yang kita nak lukis buat kali kedua tu , sama dengan kali pertama ?

aku bagi kertas kosong , kita lukis benda tu dua kali . impossible la dua dua sama 100% .

so dekat sini , aku maksudkan semua orang ada life sendiri . memang kita dilahirkan dengan sifat empati dalam diri , kesian tengok orang tu , kurang sikit daripada kita . tapi kalau dipaksa tanpa rela pun tak akan menjadi .

setiap ibu bapa ada cara dia sendiri nak didik anak dia . aku rasa cara opah , wanchik and abah aku didik aku , aku akan praktikkan untuk anak aku . sebab aku rasa diri aku sangat berdikari . walaupun kekadang aku ni memang mengada tahap aku pun tak tahu la ya Allah ya rabbi . hahahahah . tapi aku bersyukur sebab aku boleh fikir sendiri mana baik mana yang tak baik . bukan semua orang boleh diberi akal fikiran sematang ni dalam umur aku . thank you , opah , abah , and wanchik for making me who i am today . thank you for listening to everything that happened in my life . jujur aku tak pernah rasa macam aku perlu berahsia sikit pun .

YES , THEY KNOW EVERYTHING I DO .

so don't judge , because they are as happy as i am too . they know what i am doing and they want me to be happy and to succeed in my own . they don't give in and help me as i will only fell down and give up . they support and support and let me see the world as it is . they don't fool me with the things that are not real , i see the good and the bad , i've experienced the happy times the sad times in my life . 

how would you know the water is cold if you don't feel it ?

wallahualam :)

sepetang terkenang cinta hati; Rasulullah

sambil aku tulis kali ni , sambil pasang lagu Muhasabah Cinta by Edcoustic .

dalam sibuk mengejar dunia , kejar straight A's , kejar masa study untuk midterm sekarang , aku termenung sekejap dalam bus tadi . ceritanya aku terpaksa tunggu bas selama 2 jam , Allah je tahu betapa susahnya aku cuba untuk sabar . iya lah , jarang dah tunggu tunggu ni . sebenarnya aku termenung , aku teringat .

yang aku kejar sekarang sebenarnya apa

sampai pulak rumah , tak ada makanan . sabar lagi , safiyyah . aku pun masak sendiri and makan sambil termenung lagi . entah apa yang aku rasa kurang hari ni . aku pun tak pasti waktu tu . sebenarnya aku terfikir benda yang aku baca pagi tadi . Brunei has officially used Syariah law , Brunei even answered to the Americans on their bad comments on Brunei's decision . Aku bangga . Aku rasa kalau aku orang Brunei , menangis keseronokan aku , at least dah betul bergerak ke jalan Allah sikit demi sikit . It is a big step to change to an Islamic law kalau negara yang kita duduk ni dah campur aduk dengan anasir anasir barat sebenarnya . tapi , tak ke Allah suka kalau kita berjihad untuk dia ? Wallahualam .

lagi , aku terfikir . sebenarnya hati aku banyak merintih pasal Rasulullah semenjak dua menjak ni . tapi aku -mungkin sebab aku perempuan - memang senang nak menitis air mata bila terkenangkan pengorbanan Baginda . pengorbanan yang orang Islam sekarang pandang endah tak endah .

cerita petang tadi;

tengah sedap bersembang , aku yang serabut fikirkan apalah silap harini moody betul cakap, "jom kita pindah Brunei . Brunei dah guna Syariah law . Bila la Malaysia nak buat?" aku pun gelak sinis . jawapan yang aku dapat bunyi dia mcm ni, "entahlah . maybe never" betul . maybe never . Orang Malaysia takut , takut dengan hukum Allah . Malunya kita sebagai hamba Allah , tak nak ikut cara yang Allah dah bagi . Malu nya , dosa nya kita . Astaghfirullahalazim .

tengah asyik lagi bincangkan perihal orang Malaysia, ada satu dua yang berbunyi, "kalau orang kita, nampak orang kafir; gelak gelak , kata hah mampos la kamu tak masuk syurga la kamu lepas tu gelak gelak lagi" dalam hati aku iya kan , memang sebenarnya orang kita ni , yang dilahirkan seorang Muslim ni kadang-kadang tak bersyukur dan tak usaha untuk jadi lagi baik . Astaghfirullahalazim .

terus lagi aku ditampar dengan soalan, "safiyyah nak tahu? Rasulullah dulu, nampak sorang je orang kafir mati . Rasulullah menangis . Fikirkan kenapa dia mati kafir . Sahabat rasulullah bertanya dekat Rasulullah , "kenapa engkau menangis ya Rasulullah ? Bukankah dia kafir ?" Rasulullah pun jawab , "dia pun umatku . mcm mana dia boleh mati dalam keadaan kafir , walhal aku masih hidup." rasulullah menangis , safiyyah . kita ?"

ditampar lagi aku , kali ni dengan penyataan , "tahu tak safiyyah , apabila orang kafir mati , sorg sekali pun , kita semua ni akan disoal dekat Akhirat; sudahkah kamu berdakwah padanya , kenapa kamu tak dakwah dekat dia - sekarang berapa orang dah pergi ? ada kita dakwah ? dah ke kita jalan tanggungjawab kita sebagai seorang muslim dekat dunia ni ?"

orang rasa berat sangat dakwah ni , tapi aku selalu diingatkan , dakwah bukan dengan kata-kata . Orang luar negara sana , banyak yang masuk Islam cuma dengan tengok akhlak muslims dekat luar sana je . simple . and kebanyakan orang luar negara sana tu jauh lebih beriman daripada kita , kita - yang dilahirkan terus sebagai muslim .

dicerita lagi dekat aku , "safiyyah nak tahu , dekat India rasanya . mostly tempat muslims yang betul betul muslims . semuanya bertudung berpurdah - lantakkan panas terik ribut apa - jadi apabila orang bukan islam masuk , orang free-hair , dia yang terkesan . dia malu sebab semua orang bertudung . dia akan cari , at least - untuk cover up rambut dia . macam tu lah dakwah penampilan"

hati aku kata , macam tu lah yang Brunei cuba buat . Wajibkan memakai tudung supaya orang lain terkesan apabila tak bertudung . Bukan nak letakkan satu tamparan paksaan berat *hah amik kau hiperbola* tentang bertudung tapi , itulah , sikit sikit orang akan terkesan . thumbs up for Brunei .

Dekat Malaysia ? jujur kita soal diri kita senyap senyap . Agak agak lah kan . orang yang free-hair , ada tak terkesan tengok orang yang pakai tudung ?

Kenapa eh . imej apa yang kita bawak sebenarnya sebagai muslims with hijab ?

yang free-hair , especially to those yang muslims . tak terkesan ? sikit pun tak ? kalau yang muslims pun tak endah .

ini kan yang non-muslims .

Astaghfirulullahalazim . . .

aku terkesan dengan satu penyataan cerita yang orang cerita dekat aku satu hari dulu , ada non-muslim ni bagitahu , dia rasa islam tu indah , dia rasa muslim tu the best people of people in the world tapi kalau nak masuk islam , takkan terasa kalau pandang muslims dekat Malaysia . MasyaAllah . Terkesan kan . Teruknya akhlak kita , sampai dapat pandangan macam tu daripada non-muslim , a malaysian non-muslim . aku tak tahu if dia ada anything against Malaysian Muslims tapi kalau difikirkan . Sungguh . Sungguh pun apa dia kata tu .

mana akhlak kita sebagai seorang muslim ? mana sayang kita terhadap Allah , Rasulullah ? kalau kita sayang mereka , kita takkan sanggup buat dosa , kita takkan takut nak letak hukum Allah sebagai pegangan kita . mana akhlak kita kalau kita asyik bertengkar ? mana akhlak kita kalau kita masih lagi mencarut ? mana akhlak kita kalau kita masih tak tutup aurat ?

menangis aku sambil aku bersembang tentang keadaan kita sekarang . menangis aku terbayangkan perasaan hampa Rasulullah terhadap kita . Rasulullah doakan kita setiap kali Baginda solat . Umatku Umatku Umatku . Kita ? apa balasan kita dekat Rasulullah ? Ini je ? Masya Allah .

Tahu sedih kalau kita hampakan ibu bapa kita kan . sepatutnya sama banyak tamparannya bila kita hampakan Rasulullah . Bahkan lagi teruk . Dengan dosa yang kita buat hari ni , semalam , esok . Rasulullah expect the best from us , yet what do we have to give him back ? Kita sibuk persoalkan , mana pemimpin macam Rasulullah , macam Khulafa' Ar-Rasyidin . Sibuk . Cuba sibuk tanya diri sendiri pulak , mana pengikut mcm pengikut Rasulullah ? Mana ? Mana sayang-sayangku ? 

kita semua insan biasa , tak leka daripada kesilapan . but that is not the reason for us to procrastinate our taubat .

May Allah save us all , from syaitan and our nafs . May Allah bless us with Hidayah . May Allah bless us with a soft heart to always reflect ourselves and never neglect our religion , Islam . May Allah protect us all from forgetting Him , His Messenger , His religion . Ameen .

aku-
kamu-
semua sama .
tujuan hidup -kejar cinta Allah , Rasulullah , Akhirat .

baik diam .

C U TI  S E K O L A H

Macam syok je kan dah cuti sekolah ? hahaha tapi bila kita dah 17 tahun hidup ni kan , sebenarnya rasa "cuti" tu macam kureng la sikit . sebab apa ? sebab espiyeeeem homagad rasa nak belasah pastu simpan dalam peti yang ada 22 lock keys supaya tak payah hadap , boleh tak ?! hahaha but in reaity , semua benda ni kita tak oleh lari . kena rempuh jugak . so ah, apa apa je lah . buat the very best cukup ! hehe . lagi jadi pressure bila my older sister got straight A's . lagi cam . DUP DAP DUP DAP DUP DAP . Alhamdulilah ! she got straight A's, it's no surprise since she's a bright student , UNLIKE ADIK DIA NI HOH . ut i'm gonna take it as a challenge , or pembakar semangat . inshaAllah i'll get a result that will satisfy Abah and le whole family . Amin . 

actually , i wrote this post because i wanted to share a little bit on the things that have been running through my mind for a weeks . so do bare with me in this post okay . firstly , friendship. Kalau nak cakap pasal friendship , i myself have been through ups and downs about it . but alhamdulilah lebih ups daripada downs la . 

i started to have a best friend when i was 6 years old , her name was Faqihah . we were pretty close until the end of primary school but then in secondary school we were in different classes so we were a bit drifted apart . in form 1 , i started to have this group of friends whom i can call crazy and alhamdulilah we are still best friends till now . though some have changed states , schools and stuff; we would still find time like once or twice a year to gather all together . that is what friendship is all about . well at least , i hope-

now that i am in my last year of school , i reunited with my Faqihah(cuz we're in the same class again yolo swag) and our group has grown bigger and bigger . and one thing that made us closer is exo . hah- kpop ja minah ni , pusing mana cakap mesti keluaq kpop dia . i know korang cakap cam tu :p biar lah . hahaha . i'm just glad exo made us closer to each other . peace ^^V

 to have a good friend is to be a good friend first . you can't expect to have a good friend when you yourself is a bad friend . do you think you'd want a friend like yourself ? just once put yourself in your friends' shoes . if you think you deserve a good friend , but you treat your friends horribly , you truly need to recheck yourself . a good friend is a friend who listens , a good friend is a friend who jokes but knows their limits , a good friend is a friend who comforts , kalau kau rasa kau tak boleh nak korban sikit ego kau untuk kawan tu , tak payah lah . most importantly , a good friend is a good person .

as a good person , you don't go telling other people your problems like a psychopath , you don't tell people all the good stuff you know/have/can do in life because nobody likes a person who is riak . Allah , Rasul pun tak suka dik . as a good person , you should also know how to maintain a good relationship with humans and most importantly Allah . Maknanya , as a person you should know having friends means is to bring them closer to Allah , making them love doing ibadah together , so that all of us can enter Jannah , together . as a good person , you also need to make sure you are good in keeping secrets , especially other people's secrets . this is called amanah . a good person and a good friend knows their amanah or responsibility upon something when someone bestowed it up them . the most important thing in living , as a good person and friend , you should always be ikhlas . be friend with someone because you truly like them . if you don't like them , be friend with them because you can tolerate them . teach your heart to feel ikhlas with everyone . just like with our ibadah(amar ma'ruf nahi mungkar), make sure we feel ikhlas in performing all the ibadah and also make sure we feel ikhlas in leaving the things Allah forbids us to do . Now that's ikhlas , my friend . ikhlas is a powerful thing , if you think of it . just by being ikhlas Allah will grant us many many many pahala so that we can enter Jannah . So why is it so hard to feel ikhlas being friends with someone ? If you find somethings difficult to do in life , Allah has told us plenty of times , DOA . Doa is the key to everything . So basically just doa so that Allah soften up your heart to accept somebody and jauhkan syaitan daripada hati kecil kita ni . dia yg dok porak peranda kan hubungan manusia . Astaghfirullahalazim . 

i want to share a bit of what I think people nowadays are dealing with . kata dasar dia simple , manusia sekarang tak sedar dalam sedar . kenapa aku kata macam tu ? iye lah orang zaman dulu mmg tak sedar sebab jahil(jahil means tak tahu) , so bila tak tahu and tak sedar , kira boleh terima lagi la kan . but what about us , zaman sekarang yang dah sedar tapi masih buat buat tak sedar . Tak faham lagi ? okay , i'll give a simple situation; 

"Ali ni dah 20 tahun hidup , belajar ilmu agama mantap apa semua , tapi ! dkt twitter facebook masih mencarut , masih mengata sini sana , mengumpat orang , perli orang"

faham tak ? tak sedar dalam sedar . Orang yang macam ni yang memalukan us muslims . Astaghfirullahalazim :( walhal tahu apa hukumnya guna bahasa kesat , walhal tahu ada hukumnya mengata mengumpat orang . macam mana tu ?

memang sungguh, manusia tak lekang daripada melakukan kesalahan tapi sampai bila kita nak bergantung pada frasa tu , walhal dalam diri tak ada perubahan langsung . 

pernah dengar ni ? if you have , it's time for you to absorb what it means . The tongue is a dangerous weapon , so are you sure you want to keep letting your tongue talk freely without thinking ? are you sure you are willing to enter hell just because of your tongue ? it doesn't matter whether you say it or type it in a tweet or status or post or whatever .

Kalau dah tak tahan sangat-
Istighfar .
Kalau tak jadi jugak-
Maknanya hati kita keras . Jadi , doa Allah lembutkan hati kita .

Daripada cakap kosong , tak mendatangkan faedah- baik diam .
Daripada menyakiti orang lain- baik diam.

 aku bukanlah seorang ahli agama yang arif , aku bukanlah seorang insan yang punya iman yang tinggi . tapi aku cuma sekadar berpesan apa yang aku rasa , secara umum . bukan untuk kena dek batang hidung sesiapa- jauh sekali niat . 


p/s: perli , umpat , mengata , post gambar-gambar macros perdana menteri ke orang yang difitnah ke orang yang masuk lokap ke obama ke ahli ulamak ke (alahhh yg famous-famous semua tu , yg kita rasa tak dosa sebab semua orang buat tu) dkt laman-laman sesawang ni pun dicatit jugak oleh malaikat kiri kanan kita tau . so make sure nak sampaikan sebarang pendapat atau maklumat biarlah professional . jangan sampai kita kena cari mereka dekat padang masyhar sudah . Wallahualam :(


Assalamualaikum !