mama dearest...

assalamualaikum, mama. i miss you so much, ma. saf nk mama dekat sini. saf nk mama still dgn saf. right now i really need a hug from you, ma. saf dh tk blh tahan dh all this crap in my life, ma. i want a getaway boleh tk, ma ? i'm tired off all this crap la, ma ! if ada mama dgn saf at least saf boleh cerita dekat mama pasal all my problems and i'm sure mama akan tolong saf solve them kan ? without you kan, ma, i dont know who to turn to. tatau nk cerita dekat siapa, saf nk cerita dekat mama, but you're not here anymore, ma ! so i've been simpan-ing semua to myself and right now seriously saf cakap rasa macam nak meletup je, ma :(

i gave up a long time ago untuk share dengan others sebab no one seems to care pon, ma. saf dah penat, ma. penat sangat. i dont know what to do now, ma. nak kata i gave up in life, tak jugak but i've already given up in a lot of things because you're not with me, ma. you know that, ma ? i don't blame you, and certainly saf tak blame Allah sebab tarik mama from me but there's still a part of me yang still nak mama dgn saf, ma. ma, ma dengar kan, ma ? :(

i miss you, ma. i miss you so much ! :'(